Am I correct to defend the fist that holds this pen? It's the ink that lies...

Who you used to be

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 23:11:34 GMT

It seems like when we fall in love, we create such a beautiful picture of the person we fall in love with. We ignore every bad quality... every vice and every attitude, because we see them only as we want to. It's only after that person has left out lives that we realize how horrible they really were.

I don't miss you. I miss who I thought you were.

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 20:00:49 GMT

There are those people that, I believe, you will never get over.

The people you'd take in an instant, if they only felt the same.

If only...

Why does my life seem to be centered around "if only"s?

If only" and "too" are the words that are far too common in my life.

If only he felt this way towards me, if only he were as dedicated, if only I wasn't so lazy...

if only I had my faith.

Too unmotivated, too fat, too tired, too ugly, too lost to be saved anymore...

too broken

And too overwhelmed to care.

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 11:14:49 GMT

Yea, you just keep on keeping on. You have the endorsement of about the smallest minded male attention whore ever.

You must be very proud.

I get the biggest kick out of the pots calling the kettles "attention whores".

ROFLMAO

I never made you feel complete.. I would never bring you down.. so down.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 17:08:49 GMT

Hummm, so call me crazy but I don't think people should be constantly judging you or predicting your actions. They don't know who you are so they should stop belittling your capabilities, because no one really knows what other people are capable of even themselves.

Cliches don't rhyme.

And to add more to my point from above, just because you enjoy criticizing others to the point where you are much more critical of them than they are of themselves, it doesn't mean that they enjoy hearing it. And it's not constructive criticism, it's critcism that hurts people's feelings. It offends me. It's true, I'm offended easily. You say that you wish other people would judge you the way you judge others. I don't want to do that. It's not my place to tell you who you are because it's your job to find out, not mine. So please back off and let me find out who I am without you interfering.

And I'm tired of sitting here and talking about it.

I'm really sweaty guys. I smell like my brother. Woah. Just kidding, his blanket is just really nearby.

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 05:09:35 GMT

So my journal is friends only,
maybe someday I'll get a cool banner?

Don't comment, don't add me... I will comment and I will add YOU.

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 05:08:00 GMT

Everyone pretty much sucks at keeping up with their livejournals.
I want to make mine friends only.......... yeah.

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Mon, 13 Dec 2004 04:24:30 GMT

I've thought a lot... and I realized that I can't always fix people and that's okay. Some people need to fix themselves. I over reacted too. I hate feeling like I always need to apologize to someone. So I'm just going to get the apology over with and quit pissing people off. I hate loving people, it hurts.

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Thu, 09 Dec 2004 07:05:32 GMT

It's hard to love someone so much and want to protect them, and when you try it blows up in your face. Sometimes I think all my efforts are in vain. Sometimes I think I'm being a good friend when all I end up doing is ruining everything. I wish she could see what I see... that she deserves better. I don't want to stop until she gets better. I think I just lost my best friend.

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Sat, 04 Dec 2004 07:03:20 GMT

Wow I'm so incredibly sickened. A boy who hits a girl deserves to die. Josh deserves to die for the things he has done to her. This relationship had been over for so long, she's moved on, but all this crap is still going down. I can't sit by and let this keep happening, that's how it got this bad: nobody did anything. I'm going to do something. BECAUSE I'M HER BEST FRIEND.

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Fri, 03 Dec 2004 00:35:53 GMT

I agree with Jessica. December is going to be TOTAL POOP!

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Sun, 28 Nov 2004 17:48:40 GMT

Okay something funny just happened. I mean it wasn't THAT funny but someone just called to tell me I'm hot. It was a prank call. But it was totally totally Jared Lane I could tell by his stupid Barney laugh that I used to love but now I hate. Oh well, self esteem booster anyway.

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Fri, 26 Nov 2004 22:44:52 GMT

TODAY I AM THANKFUL FOR SELINE, AND THE FACT THAT SHE WILL GO TO THE GYM WITH ME AT 4 IN THE MORNING TO WORK OFF THOSE 320853058 THANKSGIVING CALORIES, EW.

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Fri, 19 Nov 2004 22:21:40 GMT

Tomorrow mine and Darin's relationship is 9 months old. So tonight we are going to the beachyesssssss.

I really really LOVE him a lot.

9 months... We could have totally had a baby by now.

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Mon, 15 Nov 2004 02:41:44 GMT

LALA I hate myself I'm a failure LALALA I want to die LALALALALA

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Sat, 13 Nov 2004 00:52:19 GMT

At work I always drink too much hot chocolate... then at my lunch break I have nothing to do because I'm not hungry because my belly is full of hot chocolate. You know... that feeling? Hot chocolate fills me up like no otherrrrrr.

MOVIE NIGHT AT MY HOUSE TONIGHT WITH
Darin my love, Hot Chad, Jessicaohmygosh !!, Buddha, Thad, Jazzy, Michelle who smells, Andy my English friend, PETAH, Josh, Kyle who loves Jessica, That kid Mike...

DO YOU WANT TO COME?????
Then call me, ishface.

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Fri, 12 Nov 2004 07:13:07 GMT

SO I'M TOTALLY GOING TO WRITE IN THIS THING NOW! Jess is going to make it look cool! Wow ya sd;kjgha;skgh!

I cut my bangs they look kinda ugly.

PS I'm a pirate!

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Thu, 21 Oct 2004 06:04:29 GMT

Remember the day you called to say they were playing our song? Remember how i didnt really seem to care? I did. I really did. I wish you still cared

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Wed, 20 Oct 2004 00:36:32 GMT

Ok WTF?? Jessica has free tickets to Green Day and she isn't taking me. I can't believe she would ever consider NOT taking me. Green Day is like aklgha;kghlkgh SOOO AMAZING!

Oh well I'll get over it somedayyyyyyy but when I have free ticket to Brand New we'll see who needs who then......... HUH?!

FFAF <333333

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 04:10:46 GMT

No matter where you go
They'll fucking tie you down
And bleed you from your wrists
Well, it's better that we leave
Leave it this way

And just to soften the blow
I'll steal all of your kisses
And sew them up
In the creases of our hearts.

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Sun, 10 Oct 2004 18:44:20 GMT

I'm watching 7th Heaven. I love Ashlee Simpson but she is an awful excuse for an actress.

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Sat, 25 Sep 2004 03:58:23 GMT

Totally, yay! An update!

I am truly, madly, deeply in love with Darin.

That's about the only new thing. I had to take care of all my school ish today. It was intriguing. School starts monday, should I be nervous?

The end.

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Tue, 31 Aug 2004 17:07:16 GMT

Even after that episode the other day, Aaron and his girlfriend are back together. I guess that's good, except GOD she's such a bitch. I don't understand how some people can put up with people who treat them like that.

It's just so many emotions at one time and it's just too much to keep up with...

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Sat, 28 Aug 2004 05:42:31 GMT

So Aaron calls and wants to know if I want to go eat some pizza since he is bored and I am bored. I said sure.

While we are there lame girlfriend Jenna (who hates me for some odd reason) calls and learns that I am with Aaron.

Jenna comes down, flips a bitch and leaves, yelling behind her that Aaron and her are over, only this time they are really over.

Then we continued to eat pizza. It was good and all, but I really didn't need the gosh darn drama.

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Tue, 24 Aug 2004 20:12:34 GMT

So it appears to me that I don't write in this thing very often, which is a cryin' shame because I've always got so darn much to say.

Well, Darin and I hit the 6 months on the 20th, so let's be happy and smile! ... What if I was dancing right now? That would be fun.

I realized that Walmart is my favorite store. I went there the other day to purchase a new set of bedding and I got all kinds of good stuff for almost no money at all. I think whenever I need something I will check Walmart first, because it is just so freakin cool there.

I have new CDs. I have new picture frames. I have new DVDs. I have new lotion. I have new licorice. I have a new purse. Ha, a new purse. I hate purses.

But, HOORAY FOR WALMART.

Jessica, come over.

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Fri, 20 Aug 2004 06:23:53 GMT

I hate that one commercial on FUSE where the chairs are having sex.

I think it is disgusting and awkwards and a little innpropriate. If you saw it, you would see why. They took it too far perhaps.